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 Hi, kembali lagi kita di blog yang tak seberapa ni.......

Sempena birthday aku yang dah dekat ni, aku nak sangat share with you guys a lil bit pasal journey hidup aku. I will start from present back to the past and straight to the future. Just nak share how life so far.

Kalau yang sedang membaca ni my mutual korang akan tau aku belajar dekat mana sekarang. Alhamdulillah aku dapat sambung belajar dalam Asasi Pengurusan (Foundation in Management). Dekat mana? Siapa yang tau tu tau lah ek. So, how is life so far you may ask? Yeah, its great even online learning so sad.

To be honest, sometimes aku ada mix feelings pasal universiti ni. It is because I have been through some miserable high school life masa awal masuk form 1 until form 2. But that's another story not now. Susah juga la online. Everything awkward. Nak kenal kawan pun awkward sebab takut beria sorang sorang. You know what I mean.

Uni life so far dah sebulan ni okay lah. Assignment jelah kot banyak. But, no pain no gain right. Insecurity? Jangan cakap bersepah dah insecure ni dalam diri. Rasanya kalau insecure ni macam rumput, dah penuh dah satu padang bola.

Challenging juga lah asasi ni sebab aku kena belajar beberapa subjek yang aku tak pernah belajar sebelum ni. Things that make it worst is actually ada banyak kawan kawan aku yang dah pernah belajar dah subjek tu masa SPM such as Accounting dengan AddMath. So, aku agak pressure juga lah. Aku pun tak tau lah kenapa kena pressure. Nasib baik most of my classmate and batchmate banyak juga bantu sampai sanggup ajar aku dua subjek yang aku sangat lemah tu.

I kind of imagine uni life will be so beautiful and full of enjoyment. It is true tho. Tapi kena ingat juga lah, takde benda yang senang dalam hidup ni. Everything we do in this world have its on level of struggle and everyone face different struggle in their life. 

Actually, there's nothing much to say about my uni life. Yet. Sebab baru sebulan and online. It is nice to meet new people, build a new life, start a new chapter of my life and try to be the best version of myself in this new phase of life. Tapi, until today I still feel anxious, overwhelmed and as I said "mix feelings" towards this new life Im going through. Several anxiety attack/panic attack or should I said series of it came in since first August.

Mungkin aku masih takut dan tidak bersedia untuk tempuhi kehidupan baru ini. 

UniLife is aLot to adapt I guess.

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